Positive Focus Sunday - Sometimes It's Very, Very Hard

Sometimes staying positive is the hardest thing you can do. Especially when you feel like your whole world has been ripped apart.

This past week has been such a week.

Texter has been dragged through the 'hedge backwards' and has had her heart ripped out on two fronts. And while I have been glad I am able to give her a place to live and a chance to heal from the first upset, the second one has laid us both low.

Lady K, who is spending the summer with her father, called us last night to let us know she wanted to live there and go to school there. 

There is no pain you can describe when something like that happens. 

We were full of plans for her new school near me - one which offers a lot of opportunities education-wise for her.

She is a smart eight-year-old. And her decision makes sense logically. 

She will be going to school with a cousin she plays with who will be in the same grade. And who lives next door to her. She will have a built-in big sister in her dad's fiancée who lives there. The other grandparents live right around the corner and they are constantly all together as a big family. 

But today, my/our hearts have been ripped out and stomped on. And we have to present a happy face to Lady K so she isn't upset that we are upset. 

Our plan is to have her back here for July and return her to her dad's to start school. And it's killing us inside. The boxes in the house which need to be unpacked with her stuff from her old house will remain unpacked for a few weeks longer - it hurts too much. 

And while I want to remain positive and upbeat - well, sometimes, it's very, very hard.